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Holidays Coming....

After tomorrow...holidays is coming ....
all in my mind nw is thinking about what and how I gonna spend my holiday which only got 1 week....

Doing assignment ...
Go to town everyday...
Stay inside the room...become zai nan...
Go to KK....

all these are in my consideration...
really dunno what am I gonna do for my holiday...
even if juz a short holiday...
yet got many many assignment going to pass up after it....
so sienzz...

so xian mu that my friends get a chance to visit brunei for once in their whole life....
me juz wish i was part of them...
could go away from this boring island...
have a walk in the rich country ...XD
see the castle...which heard to be very grand....
haix....

for now...
what i can do is just staying in the room...
pick up my books...
study, study and study.....
scared i will be mad ...
wakakaka....

P/S: What a boring holiday ....
P/S: Dunno what hav u plan for holiday.....if dun mind please share with me o....


Cry~again~

These days passes by with various type of feelings.....
yet shocking that i hav cried for two times le tis week...
so long didnt cry de ....

1st cry is for friend....

so hurt that she sudden change her attitude de...
for wat i'm know her, she is not she that i know le ...
tis sem ...she totally change ....till i dun even know who is she anymore...
last time she use to be kind hearted...now giving away cold eyes...
used to be care bout others , nw juz care bout own previlige...
even to me ...who knows bout 1 year more le ...
pretty gud in relationship...
yet nw presenting me cold hearted...
i've cried... y you can change so much ....
whr is the old u ??
so miss the old u ..and hate nw de u ....


2nd cry bcoz i scare....
today...rush in rush out...
having down mentality...
mind almost burst out...
sitting in unitrade having a cold drinking water....
all the sudden ...
everythgs in front of my eyes feel so grey...
den mind started to operate...
fright overcome every emotion of mine...
me was freak out...

" am i so irritating ?
y i always mess up thgs that i done...
always do wrong thgs...
always makes others irritate bout me ...."

all these hav come in my mind...
try not think it but yet it juz over flood my though...
so san fu... cant stand it and i cry...

" juz wanna make thgs right ,,,
izit so hard ,,,,
y am i so stupid.."

my mind continue to scold....
yet ... all the sudden i think bout u ....
so i often irritate u too ??
sorry if i do... juz wish to concern more bout u...
jz wanna know how u do ...
so scare all the sudden ...
scared one day u might leave....
dun wish to lose u ....

tears running down from my eyes...
keep on sweep it away ....

since i'm keeping eyes on a shop...
my tear has to be control by my self...
as costumer coming to the shops ....


P/S : so skd......
P/S : All the sudden juz feel that i cant afford to lose u ...